Hmmm...

I was in a pretty good mood today, like, a really good mood.  This was of course until I came to school and walked in on two girls talking about me, and how I "creep them out" because I might "secretly watch them".  I think my favourite was "well, she can find someone else to think about at night".  Sigh.  I have a message to you if you ever read this (you know who you are). I don't want you.  I wouldn't want you in a million years, and frankly, with a career in modeling I have much better looking people to think about.  You're a fake, have been a fake since the day I've met you, the only thing real about you are your hips, and sorry hun, no matter how hard you work those aren't going anywhere. I know exactly how much you talk behind my back about how "gay" I am for you.  I'm sorry, I didn't realize that you were so homophobic, and please make sure to say something when I can hear you so that I can have you kicked off campus for sexual harassment.  Heaven forbid that a gorgeous lesbian should come along...you'd have a heart attack from being paranoid.

Now that I'm done, this brings the question "Why are women (and men) so uneasy about being around bisexual or homosexual people?".  This has always stumped me.  They say "well, they'll hit on me or come onto me" but a heterosexual woman doesn't hit on every guy, and a heterosexual man doesn't hit on every woman (well...the majority anyways :P), so why would we hit on every person? (I have a type, you know!).  Isn't it possible for us to like people based on personality as well?  For example, the chick I yelled at above could be the hottest person on earth, but I wouldn't date them because they're a paranoid idiot who feels good by putting others down.  (She of course really isn't hot, and in fact is hawkish looking, but whatever.)

All the above said, I'll look at a hot chick if she walks by, and might mildly think about things, but really, it's only normal.  One thing most people fail to mention is how those of us who are Bisexual and Homosexual are generally more sexual people (I'm not pulling this out of my ass, there are a lot of studies referencing this).  It makes sense to think about it as well. We've dealt with different attractions, and have had to decide whether we would conform to the pressures of society, or embrace these attractions.  Bisexuality and Homosexuality really are sex-based attractions initially, as there is no hope of reproduction (well, nowadays there is) but they can grow and change to emotional and deep attachment attractions over time.  Even with this, people should get over themselves and realize that we're just people.

Big Sigh

DST Musings

After sleeping on it, I realized that for them they don't understand because they're only attracted to women.  One (whose name I forgot to mention) named Sam(antha) had said "I started as 'oh, I'm curious' then 'I'm bi' and finally I jut admitted I like women". Isn't that what bisexuals do as well? The only difference is that we say "yes, I like women, but I also like men".

This made me go on to think that they believe bisexuality doesn't exist because it literally was their stepping stone.  They used it to transition to Lesbianism, so they assume or believe that everyone else is doing the same. I almost forgot to mention all the college girls/teens who say "I"m a bisexual" (in a phase) because they want to be different, or turn guys on, or they think it's 'cool', which takes away from bisexuality being a real thing.  This leaves the actual bisexuals in a place where people really do believe it's a phase, whichever way possible.

To all the skanky college girls and emo teens who outgrow this phase: figure yourself out and actually have sex with a girl before deciding you're bi, please? None of this "I kissed her" crap.  You'll figure yourself out real fast if you don't like a lil pussy..

Apparently we don't exist!

All names are false, as I'm sure I'd want my private life out of their blogs as well :P.

I was talking with some friends of mine this week, and heard something funny, but that I didn't expect from them.  Let me explain them first.  One, Cheryl has recently admitted to being a lesbian and is happily dating her girlfriend, Sandra.  The other I only met recently, and as far as I know is single and happy with it.

We got onto the topic of girls, and eventually bisexuality.  Cheryl turned to me and said "I'm sorry hun, I just don't believe it can be both ways! You are, or you aren't".  Sandra agreed.  While I respect their opinions, I find it hard to believe that they of all people would have this opinion.  We're in a small city, and it's still stuck in the mindset of the early 90's here, so you either hang with the gay or straight crowd, rarely in-between.  I'd think that women such as them, who have been told that it's a phase, or that there's something wrong would understand, but instead I got the same answer: it's just a phase.  The twist of course is that they assume I'll turn gay, whereas most people think I'll give up on this whole "bisexual thing" and go back to being straight.

The argument here is: wasn't I bi from the beginning? If you're born gay, aren't you born Bi? If I was born this way, then no matter what I do, I'll never be gay, and never be straight.  Why is it so hard to believe that there are people out there who enjoy both sexes? Sigh.